I don't think I ever did finish talking about why I started this comic, did I?
Well anyway, I read all those webcomics (and other stories, but webcomics have always been my favourite medium for some reason),
so of course I had all these ideas I wanted to bring into being, crazy high concept things with branching timelines and meta-magic and world towers and different powers and levels of reality etc etc,
but I never made any of it because I never properly fleshed out the ideas to the point I felt they were ready,
Any time I got close to that point I would get bored with the idea and leave it so long I forgot half of it.
The other (probably larger) problem was that I was (and am) terrible at drawing,
and obviously I wanted my comic to not be terrible so I was waiting until I had the motivation to push myself to become good at drawing.
Inevitably, with both of these situations, the problem was that I didn't want to make a comic until I was "ready",
but I wasn't motivated to work on fleshing out the world and story, or practicing drawing, if i wasn't making the comic.
(My third, much smaller problem was that I didn't have anywhere to put the comic, which was solved quite easily by neocities)
So in the end, I decided it didn't matter if my first comic wasn't good, I wanted to at least make something,
so that I had some reason to practice the relevant skills such as storytelling, drawing, worldbuilding, website-making, drawing, characterization, and drawing.
Also, since my problem all a long has been perfectionism (though to be honest I'm not sure that's the right word for it, it's more like... neurotic self-judgement. If what I'm making is interesting, then I'm okay with it even if it's quite messy and imperfect.)
But yes, since my problem all along has been this "perfectionism", I decided to combat that I would commit myself to making a page every single day, so that I had to either get really productive all of a sudden (hey wouldn't that be nice), or give in and make something low-effort but consistent.
So here we are, low-effort and... "consistent". I mean, I've made a page every day for 9 days, so that's something, but I'm still continuing the trend of making these later and later (it's currently 4:39 am), so I think if i don't find some improvement in that respect soon I'm going to break.
Well, we'll never know until next time, when you (hypothetical reader. Should I call you HR for short? nah that's weird, sounds like Human Resources.) and I see whether there's a page or not.
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